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#selfreflection

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After two weeks of the honeymoon phase with my new game idea, I hit the "why even" bump. Partially because I saw a review of Wildsea, an RPG that does a lot of things I want to do with my game.

The thoughts of "why even create a new game? What's the point?" crippled into my brain. Usually the ideas that survive this self-doubt phase are the ones I finish.

I feel a #disassocation to most people due to almost dying several times, and going through so much suffering and pain.

I am lucky to be alive and healthy at all, as there are more a universe where I died than the one where I lived.

I value #life in a different way, and live in the moment to take my time as I please, not too concerned about the far.

Most see life as a race, and their heads are far.

It makes falling in #love hard as I'm an enigma for a younger man.

A quotation from Montaigne

Trust in another’s goodness is no light testimony to one’s own.
 
[La fiance de la bonté d’autruy, est un non leger tesmoignage de la bonté propre.]

Michel de Montaigne (1533-1592) French essayist
Essay (1572), “The Taste of Good and Bad Things Depends Mostly on the Opinion We Have of Them [Que le goust des biens et des maux despend en bonne partie de l’opinion que nous en avons]," Essays, Book 1, ch. 40 (1.40) (1595) [tr. Screech (1987), 1.14]

Sourcing, notes, other translations: wist.info/montaigne-michel-de/…

✨ MIRROR OBSESSION: Why We Shouldn’t See Ourselves ✨

Why were we created unable to see ourselves directly? Yet we built mirrors, cameras, and screens—and became fixated on our own reflection.

In this essay, I explore how my childhood mirror obsession shaped my identity and how living without mirrors for four years transformed my relationship with self-image and ego.

📖 Full story in the first comment 👇🏾
#MirrorObsession #Mindfulness #SelfReflection #Minimalism #PersonalGrowth #SpiritualGrowth

This is my first time sharing some of myself reflections, i hope that my sharing these i might help someone else on this planet to look to things from a different perspective.

The following self reflection is about my fear on meeting new people outside of a work setting.

[Situation]
I have a irrational fear for meeting new people outside of work.
I think that this fear stems from:
- Past hardships
- That i think i need someone to introduce me to new people
- I am afraid of disrupting the flow of the group or person i am trying to meet

[Effect]
This causes me to isolate myself from others, making the root cause of this issue worse

[Analysis]
The fear of the unkown is rooted deep within us.
While it shields us from danger, it also inhibits change

- Past hardships are outside of my control, and therefore Irrelevant
- Noone will introduce me on their own, the only way i can overcome this issue is by introducing myself
- It is inevitable that my introduction will disrupt the flow of the group or individual, but i will never meet new people unless i do

What i control in this situation:
- How i present myself
- Where i go to meet new people
- Who i approach
- How i process the meeting(My judgement on the meeting and or perception)

What is outside of my control and thus irrelevant:
- The state of mind of the other person or group
- Their response to my introduction
- Rejection(However i do control how i process this and my perception of this rejection)
- Who they are with
- Their preconception of me
- How they interpret my first impression

[Conclusions]
- Rejections are part of fate "Amor Fati" accept fate for you cannot control it, It is part of life, fate is outside of our control therefore the fear of rejection is irrelevant and should not become or be an obstacle to our own development
- Past setbacks and hardships are compasses that lead to the development of personal growth and virtues
- As they are an unknown to me, i am to them, I can control my own fear, not theirs, The most logical step is to take the initiative, break the ice for i have control of my own fear

[Closing thoughts]
- Taking the first step is up to me, my situation will not change unless i take that step and introduce myself
- How they feel or think is outside of my control
- Nothing will change unless i expose myself to this irrational fear.

Writing down my thoughts, meditating on them and then rationalizing them has given me a new perspective on this issue, and i cannot wait to meet new people.

The key concept at play here is: The Dichotomy of control, letting go of that which you cannot influence and instead focussing on that which you can.


#stoicism #stoic #philosophy #selfreflection #meditation #self-help

When I was young the only thing I ever wanted to do was befriend people, and try to help. To make them smile, and wonder or wander about the world to find everything that was beautiful.

I would cry if I killed a beetle, and the idea of hurting someone caused me pain.

I tried to hold onto that, but trying to survive as an adult made that hard.

Now that I am safe I am learning to be young again as I grow older.

It's wonderful, and I find beauty in the world again.

One of my flaws? I can be a bit sensitive sometimes. Knowing this about myself, when I feel like something might have offended me, I usually take a step back. I try to figure out if something genuinely wrong happened, or if I'm just overthinking it or misinterpreting the situation.
It happened again today, and I'm still trying to sort it out. Thankfully, a friend helped me get some perspective, but I haven't completely ruled out being in the right. If I am, it'll definitely change some of my future decisions quite a bit.
Here's the ironic part: ultimately, it won't change much for me. But the person in question might not realize what they stand to lose if they've genuinely underestimated the situation. Only time will tell!

And in one hour from now...pizza!

I’ve been pondering if I have any identifiable desires. I grew up with desires that damaged the environment or caused harm to people through imperial and colonial means—directly or indirectly. Now the desires I allow or find myself having are seemingly not achievable in my current political climate.

They’re more about needs (food, shelter, health care, connection). I want to grow food, I want to help keep folks housed, I want to provide pain relief. Mutual aid is how we help make the world we want to see a reality. Our politicians in the U.S. can’t feed our neighbor, but we can. It’s not something that comes naturally for me as a less people-oriented individual, but I work at it. Like learning how to share in Kindergarten—unlearning the capitalist mentality instilled in us to hoard wealth. There are wise people spreading the message and teaching by example—I’ve learned a lot from them.