1/?
The way I've been feeling is like having CPTSD all over again. In fact, I think that's exactly what it is. There is apparently a C/PTSD diagnostic tool that is internationally recognized and available online for self assesment.
https://www.traumameasuresglobal.com/_files/ugd/be25b4_f2d205d2cde4448aaedbfb7cda78ca35.pdf
I hit 4, the worst possible measurement, on all but 2 of the questions.
3/?
Even after I was fully transitioned and had gotten my surgery, I still dealt with CPTSD for years afterwards, and it only faded slowly over time. Took me about ten years to get to a point where I would say I was no longer suffering from it.
Now, though, I've developed a whole new CPTSD because of the past ten years of constant assault on trans people by right wingers.