Adrienne Harper<p>Welp, about a week ago, me and a buddy spent Friday and Sunday at <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/SonicTemple" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>SonicTemple</span></a> because (even with me falling deep into the <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/hiphop" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>hiphop</span></a> and <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/electronicmusic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>electronicmusic</span></a> rabbit holes over the years) <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/metal" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>metal</span></a> was my first musical love. And like a ex who you still look fondly upon (and are still friends with), metal always comes back into my life at some point.</p><p>This was my first music festival since <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/eggcrack" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>eggcrack</span></a> / starting <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/HRT" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>HRT</span></a> nearly 2 years ago and I could tell I was FAR more sociable with the alt and goth women of my generation who were there in the stands and in the pit than I was at festivals I attended before I realized I'm a <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/transwoman" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>transwoman</span></a> (had many call me "pretty" and "beautiful"...even had a sassy mutual smooch with one of them). Even in a scene as cis-het-normative as <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/heavymetal" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>heavymetal</span></a> , the worst I got from old men/women was a shrug that read of "I'm old. I've seen it all." instead of outright bigotry. Most hurt I got was someone accidentally stepping on my foot during a mosh pit.</p><p>And due to economic situation and the incoming shit-storm for <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/trans" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>trans</span></a> folk like myself, this will likely be the last festival I attend for a hot minute. And the next one will likely be in a genre even more accepting of <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/queer" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>queer</span></a> culture (like <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/punk" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>punk</span></a> or <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/EDM" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>EDM</span></a> ).</p><p>Still, it was a good time seeing bands like <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/Metallica" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>Metallica</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/AliceCooper" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>AliceCooper</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/Deafheaven" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>Deafheaven</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/AcidBath" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>AcidBath</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/AskingAlexandria" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>AskingAlexandria</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/Sepultura" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>Sepultura</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/Testament" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>Testament</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/SuicidalTendencies" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>SuicidalTendencies</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/Beartooth" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>Beartooth</span></a> and more. And getting a bit buzzed early in the day.</p><p>Time to also go easy on the wallet for a bit.</p><p>Also, these writings on my face were done with my makeup palates and my index finger. The flag idea was like "What if I made the trans flag into something like war paint?" Me writing "TRANS DYKE" on my face just felt sassy, punk rock, and cunty all at once. </p><p><a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/update" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>update</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/life" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>life</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/transgirl" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>transgirl</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/transgender" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>transgender</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/transmusic" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>transmusic</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/musicfestival" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>musicfestival</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/transfemme" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>transfemme</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/transbian" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>transbian</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/lesbian" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>lesbian</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/transfeminine" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>transfeminine</span></a> <a href="https://chaosfem.tw/tags/dyke" class="mention hashtag" rel="nofollow noopener" target="_blank">#<span>dyke</span></a></p>