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#recovery

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I looked like an absolute lunatic, as something in my body shifts and my face contorts to absolute pain and horror and I let out an anguished howl in the middle of the sushi restaurant then immediately ask for the check. It's a good thing their food wasn't any good because I can never go back there. But I needed to go back to the safety of a hotel bed and my pain meds ASAP. I will have to find sustenance elsewhere.
#LivingDonor #Recovery

I wish I could've had this procedure done on my shoulder weeks ago. The difference in energy levels is huge. Pain sapped so much from me. Now it doesn't hurt nearly as much. The pain was constant before, with big spikes any time I moved a little wrong. It woke me up many times during the nighttime.

My range of motion is somewhat improved. I can tuck my shirt in again. Hoping I'll be able to put my hair up in a bun again without heroic efforts. #FrozenShoulder #recovery

On January 2, 2024, I weighed in at 245lbs (111kg). I was fat, sick, and emotionally dead.

This morning, I weighed in at 158lbs (72kg). I'm healthier than I've been in a long time, happier, and fully present. I don't feel like a ghost haunting my own life anymore. I live a life free of self-deception, lies, and self-made misery.

I'm recovering from compulsive eating behaviors. I'm a work in process, a project that'll never be complete. But it works, as long as I work it.

Yesterday I was in my regular reading group (colleagues sharing research) and admitted that I'm a slow writer who can't stick to a schedule, and the punitive solutions they came up with actually triggered a certain horror in me. I don't disapprove in principle, but it took me back to a time when punishment was the only way I could relate to myself.

I don't know if this means that I'm motivated differently now or that I'm ready to re-learn those methods without the shame. #cptsd #recovery