I’m contemplating moving back from my own instance to my old mastodon.scot account (@brianlavelle). It’s been an interesting experiment to have my own instance, but I don’t feel like I’m getting to see as much with the limited reach of the small one-person server as I did before, even four months on from the move.
There’s also the cost and limited server space, especially for images. I think I’d rather donate what I’m paying to masto.host to the mastodon.scot administrator.
I've been envious of people who can shit-post off the cuff and be funny 
it's a skill and maybe even attitude I just never seem to have cultivated, and with popularity and reach literally being what puts food on my table (and in my cats' bowls), it's been a constant thought that gnaws at me...
but...
I think I finally understand and have at least some appreciation for the sort of comfy cozy vibe I seem to put off, and wonder how I can cultivate that further 
The games I grew up playing, Tony Hawk games, Doom, and the PS2 era WWE games seemed to have influenced my taste in music.
One day, right before I woke up, I had a bad dream that a housecat was about of pierce parts of my legs with its claws.
When I woke up, I realized those parts of my legs were sore.
After I thought about the dream for a bit, I came to the conclusion that having a housecat as your sleep paralysis demon isn't the worst thing in the world.
(I don't have a cat, but I grew up with cats, and I am quite fond of them.)
5/x
Religion, like a fly trapped in amber, freezes into place the wisdom and ignorance of a specific culture, within a text that is venerated and applied across time and space, to contexts the original authors could never fully fathom or appreciate.
4/x
As an adult, I've learned the future is far less clear than you think it is.
(I actually said this during a job interview, after I was asked the standard question, "Where do you see yourself in X years?")
3/x
Everyone is a Republican on tax day, a libertarian when they get a traffic ticket, and a Democrat when they apply for government assistance.
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Here are some quotes and ideas I have generated, either in response to things that have happened in my own life, or in response to things I have heard, watched, or read.
These ideas are often referred to as "shower thoughts," even though I didn't necessarily generate these ideas while I was in the shower.
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Nothing like the shock of cold water from a closed-minded family member to start the day.
I wrote my sister this morning to let her know I had big stuff going on in my life. Just yesterday evening, my husband and I signed the papers and filed them with the court to get the last stage of the divorce going.
Was she supportive? Why, no! Instead she said "Happy to hear all is going well for you."
Now it's true that we're not devastated by the end of the marriage, but still, this is the end of an 8.5 year marriage/over 9 year relationship. And I had also been very supportive of her 3 or 4 marriages. I know she and her husband are very anti-LGBTQ, but in this case, I'm family, and aren't you more likely to be decent to those close to you?
I don't know if I'm going to like Doom the Dark Ages, to me it looks like they took everything I loved of Eternal and stripped it out or slowed it down. Hope I'm wrong
Today is VE day. What a difference 80 years make.
I hope we remember that moment and use it as inspiration for our current one.
I feel a bit like an alien from time to time. I am a former Microsoft stack developer in a place with all sorts of Linux and Curl people. I will enjoy my spot on the sidelines while all the cool kids converse.
my grandmother used to tell me I was an old soul
she didn't mean it like white people do
white people say it like it's a compliment, or at worst "weird"
she meant she could see how tired my soul is
that I was nearing my last life
I think about that a lot lately
I wish I'd gotten more time with her
Dude. If I live until I’m 65, I’ll write a book about my life, with all the gory details thrown in for good measure. I’d write one now, but something tells me the ride’s not over quite yet. When I do meet my creator, we’re gonna have words. We might even have a fight. They got me fucked up
#life #musings
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