Oh, I also need to do some reading on current thinking on bipolar disorder in general, but also specifically on #cyclothymia and so-called #cyclothymic temperament.

I'm curious if what the research is seeing consists mainly of people with unstable mood on a scale of hours to weeks plus oscillatory energy levels, but which don't meet criteria for #bipolar disorder.

@airshipper yeah yeah!
Like, if we’re all the equivalent of cells on the biosphere of the Earth’s surface,
then ideas would be the abstract (holographic?) representation of
relevant information flux (travel) thru an area in a given time span.

So then

Also I discovered a fundamental truth about neurotype communication! Possibly.
https://lgbtqia.space/@MxVerda/113477312218639736
And / or I may be overtired after migraine postdrome and need sleep desperately.

My counsellor suggested that my #cyclothymia diagnosis may need revisiting - and that my symptoms and experiences may just be a normal human reaction to being trapped in a toxic marriage. She has a hunch that I may however have #adhd. I’m on the waiting list for an assessment. #mentalhealth

I’ve just got to make it through today and the small talk of 10s of strangers. Looking forward to 4pm when I can slip out and head for the train. I can relax then as it whisks me back to the comfort of being alone in my own place.
#depression #anxiety #cyclothymia #sad #mentalhealth

My battles with #depression and #anxiety were so lengthy and traumatic and it feels wonderful to be in a healthy place at last. Every single time I see someone else suffering I want to take away their pain. I can hardly describe how crippling and soul destroying it was. I had no joy, excitement or hope for the future. I was barely existing.
#cyclothymia #bipolar #mentalhealth

Can’t decide whether I’m getting old or just stable again after a #hypomanic episode, but my #libido has crashed
#bipolar #cyclothymia

I’m still only getting around 5 hours sleep per night. I feel less edgy and #hypersexual but I could really do with 7 or 8 hours. Maybe I should get some sleeping pills. Slightly reluctant though cos even they don’t produce real sleep, and just mask the problem.
#hypomania #bipolar #cyclothymia

My #hypomania seems to be subsiding after reducing my #antidepressants and after a spell of cloudier, rainier weather (I have #seasonalaffectivedisorder). My aggression and #hypersexuality levels are down, and hours of sleep and ability to focus are up.
#bipolar #cyclothymia

#Hypomania turns me into a bit of a dick. I become more assertive to the point of mild aggression. I also become more sweary and edgy with my humour. People don’t know how to handle me - especially senior mangers . Quite remarkable that I’ve never been fired.
#bipolar #cyclothymia

I got 8 hours sleep last night which is double what I’ve been managing of late. Thank f*ck for that as my #hypomania has been getting out of control. I narrowly avoided a full on war with a senior manager at work, and nearly fell out with an old friend on Twitter, all the while feeling angry, fighty and on the verge of tears. Hoping that the wired rage will now subside. And the #hypersexuality.
#bipolar is complete mind f*ckery
#cyclothymia

Been #hypomanic the last few weeks. Can’t afford to see my psychiatrist so have taken it upon myself to reduce my sertraline by 25mg a day to 75mg. Fingers crossed.
#bipolar #cyclothymia #seasonalaffectivedisorder #sad

I feel like spoon theory really is a thing for me. I just get to this point where I can’t do anything else productive. I’m often completely psyched for getting shit done when I first wake up and smash through tasks. Then there’s the post lunch slump, and then I’m mostly a zombie after about 4pm unless I recharge with a nap. My ex-wife said I was lazy.
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Spoon_theory
#mentalhealth #cyclothymia #bipolar

With this #costofliving crisis I need to bring more money in but I’m scared. I’m not able to stay afloat financially right now. I have #cyclothymia and so my #mentalhealth can deteriorate to the point where I can’t do anything… at the moment I’m stable and happy, but if I push for a promotion and bag a tougher job with longer hours it might push me over the edge… again. #Catch22

I’ve emerged from a mini #hypomanic episode and entered into the inevitable crash. I’ve just slept 4pm to 8pm and will likely sleep through the night too. Hoping stable times will resume tomorrow
#bipolar #cyclothymia #hypomania

So #hypomanic right now…. Blasting out toots and tweets all over the place. Looking for arguments .
#bipolar #cyclothymia #mentalhealth

A touch #hypomanic today - full of ideas and excitement and an overwhelming desire to toot, tweet and connect with people. Also a serious lack of focus.
#bipolar #cyclothymia #seasonalaffectivedisorder

I’m a lukewarm mess. I’ve slipped into a #depression again. #Lethargic, #overwhelmed, low #selfesteem, anxious. Kickstarting my exercise and healthy eating routine to see if I can regain control.
#cyclothymia #anxiety

I’m not sure there’s any point pushing myself to go out and socialise when I’m feeling lethargic and vacant. I have little to offer anyone and look forward to the moment I can leave and relax. I just don’t like ‘letting people down’ at the last minute.
#cyclothymia #depression #tiredallthetime

‘Powering through’ #mentalillness was a terrible strategy that almost cost me my life. The only way out was to acknowledge the problem and seek help, which was frankly terrifying. If there is a devil, he was doing everything he could to stop me from taking those healing steps.
#mentalhealth #depression #anxiety #cyclothymia #bipolar

Feeling #anxious, #depressed and lethargic today. Think it stems from poor sleep hygiene, poor diet and lack of exercise over the last couple of weeks. Taking deep breaths and reminding myself it’s ok to go easy and set realistic (low) expectations of myself on days like this.
#cyclothymia #mentalhealth #bipolar