I just had a really decent cry because I'm soooo fucking exhausted, and I'm going to do something with mom tonight to hopefully perk my mood. How are you doing today #MentalHealth community?
@loudmouthbrowngirl sad.
My kid is not willing to eat and I don't know how to make him better.
He is calm now, which to be honest, I don't even know if it is better or worse than yesterday's desperation. He's #depressed and sadder than I ever saw him. He's in a state of apathy that cannot be good.
Yesterday he told me he just wanted to be himself in the morning, and feel how he used to feel. I don't know how long will it take to be so.
It may be #teenlove, but the wounds are painfully real.
@npspock I know that feeling so well. I used to dance, paint, draw, sing, and be all kinds of loud, and some days all I do is sleep, I feel like a shell of my former self. Let him know he's not alone, maybe share some of your stories, and just be there to support him as he needs. He loves you, he just needs to know you got his back.
@loudmouthbrowngirl I am just now reading this, and I just came from tucking him in (yes, he's 17, but I've always gone with him when it's bedtime and we talk for a bit about several subjects).
Tonight the subject was exactly that, my story with his mom, how we met, how we broke up 3 times before finally getting married, stuff we've gone through.
I told him it's not going to be easy, but two things he can always count on: Things will get better, and I'll always be there for him.
@loudmouthbrowngirl He was telling me, right before I told him our story, how this is the time of day he fears the most, because when everything is silent, he has nothing to hear but his own thoughts, and that's something he fears right now.
It's heartbreaking to listen to your kid say this, but I'll have to be strong for both of us until he gets back on his feet, even if his story is bringing back memories I've spent a lifetime trying to forget.
@npspock Yes. I SOOO get that.
Have you tried taking him to a painting class? Soemtimes I can't say things in English, but painting helps me say things, without words, but it still comes out.
@loudmouthbrowngirl taking him, no. But I've suggested he tried painting, as well as writing (he loves to write), but he said no. The only thing he still does is karate, which is good, as it was what always helped him so far.
@npspock oh I should try that. i hope he finds something soon. You sound like you're being fairly open with him. I wish I'd had that growing up, that's a sign you're doing a good job