If you go from being relatively normal to having an internal war on whether you are trans or not in a week, does that mean you're trans?

I'm depressed right now. I hate myself for making myself go through this. I could've been just fine and not have to worry about all this stuff.

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It started off as a thought experiment, and now it's genuinely eating me alive.

But also, how “normal” I felt before all this happened? I don't know.

@avalos cis people don't have such powerful feelings towards these kinds of thoughts. It's a struggle for sure, but at some point, repression is worse.

@snarkyerica The point is… this wasn't a struggle a week ago! 😭 I don't even remember what I felt like a week ago, honestly. I feel like I turned myself into an egg artificially. 😭 None of what I've gone through has felt natural.

@snarkyerica Though, suddenly at times I feel like it's always been there, and it's a lot more natural than I thought.

@avalos
Are there any other labels you feel comfortable with besides trans?

@avalos
For right now, will that be ok while you take a breather?

@avalos
Why? Do you feel like you can't be non-binary because you don't deserve it or something?

@JuneCrow I can be non-binary, and I'm okay with it, it's just that I don't feel like it's enough and it's part of what I think is causing me all of this mental mess.

@avalos
Would it make you feel better if an internet stranger told you it's enough?

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